Longpee's Xanga

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Sat, 15 Jan 2005 02:15:57 GMT

dude its so funny how everyone has a myspace now...so noone ever writes in their xanga...hahaha LMAO! well later y'all!

Monday, December 20, 2004

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 02:15:36 GMT

Hey, i'm finally updating....shocking i know! anyways. Two friggin weeks fellow high schoolers! Well, if ur reading to figure out wats going on in my life, u'll have to talk to me. A lot of new stuff. If ya got yahoo messenger, talk to me! I dont talk on aim anymore. My sn is beenanabanana. O, and if anyone knows any new info about the total chaos tour, comment here! Much Love!!!!
-Bri

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 19:07:49 GMT

hey everyone! it has been a long time since i updated, but i had free time in ingles. anyways. i have a question for everyone who reads this.

Why do we hold grudges, when the meaning behind teh grudge has dissolved, or become unimportant?

I thought about that a lot this weekend. I dont have enough time to write my thoughts on it right now tho. I have one more question

Why does one fear hypocrisy?

I know i fear it, and try my best to not be one.

Well have a good day! i hope that each of you have a wonderful day and life until the next time u read my thoughts that are on this xanga. I also hope that each of you are as at peace with your life as i am at the moment!

Love u all, Bri

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 03:13:38 GMT

hey everyone WASSABE! Sorry its been so long. i cant go on xanga at home bcuz it screws up my comp so im at jackies. thanks jackie.....well so A LOT has happened! I turned 16! I had my first surfing lesson! yeah even tho it wasnt the best, i blame it on the weather. Anywho! i have contacts! thankgod...ive been wearing em... u know looking Hott; except for the last few days because of a casualty with my left eye...yeah it got irritated and red..like wicked red... well u all know about that! hahah adrian u turned purple! thanks DAVID for all the visine at break!!! anywho, i have slick teeth too...as adrian wud say IM A WHOLE NEW BRI! well life is awesome despite a few frustrations, but i am trying to handle them as well as anyone can. Dude school is so crazy, so stressful. lets see....o AUTHORITY ZERO is awesome. u shud check 'em out. WElLl thanks jackie and catri, u guys have really been there for me lately. thanks for being awesome freinds. And thanks to anyone who has prayed for Carlie. unfortunately she didnt make it, and she passed away on Friday night. But please keep my aunt and uncle in your hearts. Lets see........... well 6 flags posssibly tomaro! exciting....last time i was there i was 2! well i wrote a lot. so yeah. i hope everyone is doing awesome! please comeent and DO TELL!!!!!! MUCH LOVE!

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 21:30:55 GMT

o the new green day CD is friggin insane! antyone thinking about buying....BUY IT!!!!!!! i personally love it to death!!! i especially love "BLVD OF BROKEN DREAMS". LATA

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 21:29:51 GMT

hello. bonjeur! or however u spell that in french!well ho wis everyone! no one friggin says hi to me on my xanga anymore. no comments. no hi. hmph!well i am getting really excited u guys! sunday is just around the corner!!!!! STORY OF THE YEAR! LETTER KILLS! AUTOPILOT OFF! LOST PROPHETS! MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE! eek im so excited!!!!!!! and then next weekend is my bday weekend!!!!! omg!!!!! im so happy with my decade. we have the 60s and i am researching VIETnam. yep! well off to do hw! and scott you look cute on jacks xanga! o and wat the hell is going n DONE DEAL?????? jack = pisser now bcuz of it. u gotta fix that. jack is always happy. fix it done deal .....if u are still done deal. well lata!!!!!!

Monday, September 27, 2004

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 22:41:57 GMT

ALright. well this last weekend was crazy. friday nite jackie and i saw the Forgotten...really good movie kinda trippy yet awesome. Then i spent the nite at her house. then on sat i drove in adrians car to the beach. omg. me, mike, jack, and david dnyder smooshed in the back. it wasnt comfy cozie. then it was so awesome all the guys started to yell/scream ot senses fail. it was so awesome. kudos and kudos to the spaz in the front seat...david omg i thought u were so funny. the beach was pretty kul it was fun. then we went to jacks watched them practice, and then went to jack in teh box this time with 5 ppl in the back seat and three in the frront. freaking crazy. then we went to adrians and watched Jeepers Creepers 2. sorry adrian about the candle. i kinda freaked out at that one scene. omg ur spit kept flying on me!!!!!!!

anyways yseterday, as in sunday, i went to the LA fair. IT WAS SO FKN HOTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!! but it was fun i ate so much. my grandme kept buying me food. eh. well good times. i hoipe everyone has an awesome week. MUCH LOVE!!!!!!

Friday, September 24, 2004

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 22:17:38 GMT

Hey everyone. I hope u have had a wonderful time with life these last few weeks. And I hope that all of u are very content with who u are and what ur life is bringing u.

Know out of everything im about to say…I want to first say that im the happiest I have been in a really, really, really long time…..there are my emo days like today. But I sit here and just I know I have things to work out in my head but other than that I am so thankful that things are working out for the better. Even tho I am confused with things.

Im on this huge twisty turny emotional rollercoaster. Lately I cant decipher which way is up. Someone asked me the other day how I was doing, and a million different things popped into my head. Of course I said I was happy. I’m a live and I am surrounded by ppl who show nothing but love for me, but there are things that I have to face with everyday that I have spent the whole summer trying to forget. Besides that, my whole world has been flipped upside down, and everything that I have known for so long is different and changed. I have realized how I have royally fucked up different things in my life. Different things I wish I could fix because of the hurt I have caused. How my ignorance has caused other ppls lives to change drastically, as well as my own.

But then as im wishing I didn’t do those things I am so grateful I did because if I hadn’t then I wouldn’t be where I am today with who I am today. I have the best friends in the world…the best friends ever. Yet somehow I figure out a way to fuck it up with them. I don’t understand why I have to do the right thing. I always have to protect other ppl, do what I think would help them, yet somehow that seems to fuck it up for someone else. Somehow im always stuck.

I hate fitting in this concrete mold ppl have me in, as being this super happy/hyper/tough girl. If I don’t act the way ppl know me to be, then something is automatically wrong. But its not….its just that im tired of being this super spunky red head chick 24/7. Its just a mood that im in lately. Ill get over it. Ya know….just let it be.

Then on top of this. I have been so friggin emo the last few days. Like yesterday I just wanted to break down and cry in the middle of espanol. I was like wtf is this?. I NEVER cry. I think I am so confused because ppl I have resented and held no respect for, for so long, aren’t as bad as I remember them to be. I will never be able to forget what happened between them and how much I wish they wudda just listened. If they had only listened but they didn’t. and I know they prolly still hate me bcuz of what I supposedly did.. but I mean argh./ u know. God I was finally past this. I asccepted everything ya know? But now that I talk to them everyday its like argh. Everything has been shot to hell. I am so confused because a;ll of the anger I have held within myself for so long is so less important. And every time I see them together it hurts so bad. It makes me think of so many things ya know. God, y cudnt they have just listened.

Thanku sara tho for wat u have said to me. U really have no idea how much that means to me. Im sorry for how u feel, but u know wat I kbnow wat that is like. I

I hope I didn’t offend anyone. Im just so mixed up right now…so many emotions……..

Jackie I love u. u have been so freakin awesome to me lately…I don’t know how u do it…I don’t know how u have this amazing ability to forgive. I dotn know how u have endured all the shit I have put u thru, and then still take me back. U are truly amazing. I admire u. im sorry for hurting u…ur my girl Jackie. Ur my girl. I love u lover

Shan I know we going thru weird times rught now. Its just I wont let certain things happen to me again so Im really defensive. And I hate double standards so I have this annoying habit of confronting ppl about it. But thanks for putting uo with me on my eno days. Thanks for being so amzing…..i live u. u have touched my heart. Just please be patient with me.

. well off to crazy days. And u know wats weied….im the happiest I have been in like a year. Even with all this shit

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 00:24:15 GMT

wow!!!!!! let me just say that the guys were FREAKIN AMAZING!!!! AWESOME JOB GUYS....... wow david u impressed me . and u and jack looked Hott hahaha tho i liked ur jack-o-lantern shirt....JACK U DISSAPEARED wow did u go!!!!! ummm u guys were so kul during 187 wen u all sang at the same time. that was HOTT. mike ur bass made my crotch vibrate hahahhaha. and adrian the war is not over!!!!! u were really good to. funn times on the way home .....well i look forward to ur next show hopefully at CHAIN REACTION if its not on the 24th. anywho. wow RECKONING DAY was reallly awesome too! i wanna go to their next show. i liked vision in ultraviolet. i REALLY LIKED THE 3RD BAND. good moshing david and adrian hahaha. well good times. ttyl. MUCH LOVE!!! - BEENANA

Saturday, September 04, 2004

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 05:30:28 GMT

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!well school started. the first day absolutely SUCKED! but friday was much, much better. im taking art! and anatomy honors. i have to deal with takahashi again but it beats imlay. he was an ass. im sorry but he was. and then omg heritage fkd me over. but lets not go into that.yeah im sorry im cussing. i guess its just cuz its late. no excuse. but its been a cussy day today. ummm....shannon beinmg able to drive me rules!!! hahhha we beat everyone to jack in the box today!!! hahahah JACK IS SO OUT OF THE FLAB HAHAHAHHA. BUT ME ADRIAN AND SCOTT ARE SO IN THE FLAB. ARE U IN THE FLAB???????? HAHAHAHHA o man. ummmm i hate my 1st period. but eh. ummmmm well lets see. o and today jack and david freaked everyone out. the little fuckers. sheesh. jk. o man there was such a good movie on Lifetime today. u know which one im talking about jackie. hahah the one with syphlis. ummm...O WHAT ARE THE ODDS...i have casey in my math class. WAT ARE THE FRIGGIN ODDS????? its so weird THANK GOD i dont sit by him. adrian...i mite need help in that class...eeesh... lets see. some of tghe new freshman are friggin tall....but then the majority are friggin tiny...its so fun being a junior. it was funny watching them squirm! lets see. o hey i just found a new fresckle. wow! i dun think i like it. but eh. so ya going shopping qith jackie tomaro and then movies AND then drag queens!!! hahahahha. o man. well i think i have written a novel so i guess i should say goodnite. or goodmorning depending on how u look at it! MUCH LOVE!!!!!!!